Friday, July 6, 2012

A "Real" Day

Today was a big day. First day of a combination of Chemo and Radiation treatments. These are long days. The chemo is in the morning, once a week, and takes about 3-4 hours total. Longer every other week with a visit with the chemo doc.

Radiation is 5 days a week, in the afternoon at the same time everyday. With seeing the Radiation doc once a week. Luckily, this treatment only takes about 10 minutes in and out the door.

So on Fridays, when the treatments coincide, it makes for a very long tiring day. And from what I hear, the day of chemo isnt so bad, its over the next few days that you really feel like crap. Last week was a testament to that, but we shall see this week. Here's to hoping drinking over a gallon of water today does the trick! (It sounds like a lot, but really, my mouth is little dry already and Im still thirsty.) Im feeling pretty well tonight so it's looking good so far...

Thursday, July 5, 2012

Visit to Urgent Care

Today, I was having a little heaviness in my chest and it became worse and worse over the day, to the point that it was so painful that I could barely move or breathe. I called up my Chemo Nurse/new best friend and she told me to go in to urgent care (since it was late in the day) to get a chest x-ray to check for lung problems.

We went in, and they didn't find anything wrong with my lungs/chest and gave me a diagnosis in fancy medical terms that meant "lung pain." Thanks, already knew that. But it was good to know I didn't have a collapsed lung, pneumonia, blood clot, port displacement, etc.

But the doc took one look at my forearm incision (where my lump was removed) and said it was infected. It is possibly a staph infection (which is really difficult to fight, especially while having cancer treatments) so he took a swab to send in. He fixed my arm all up and told us he'd call on Monday with the culture results. I also went home with the beginning of the antibiotic for a staph infection, which would be extended if it actually turned out to be staph.

He also checked my port incision and that looked great. I was surprised at how much better it looked than my arm.

All in all, turned out to be a good visit. Glad to get two problems solved with one visit. It's always something though...

Let the Countdown Begin

Today was my first day of Radiation Therapy. The beginning to the end. The countdown to the onset of side effects. And the countdown to healing. To overcoming.

They say the first week has very minimal, if any side effects.
The second week you start getting some side effects, but nothing to bad.
But the beginning of the third week is when everything really starts getting tough, and only gets worse and worse until the very last treatment of week 7.

While I dont look forward to the beginning of side effects (in fact it's the thing that scares me the most), I am anxious to this all over and done with.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

What to expect

Ive meet with so many doctors. And they all end the appointment with a review of what symptoms to expect. There's a lot of pretty serious ones, so they all want to make sure we are aware and able to prepare for them.

-Erbitux (chemo) rash, aka bad acne that can be very painful and leave scares.
-Erbitux also causes very dry skin allover your body. It can cause deep cracks on your fingers and feet. Some people even lose toe nails.
-Radiation causes your skin to basically get a really bad "sun burn." It can blister, crack, and bleed.
-My radiation treatment is a wide field that covers from my jaw bone down to mid-chest. Because the field covers my jaw bone, there are a lot of symptoms that will affect my mouth. My jaw bone will be compromised from the treatments, so later in life I can never ever have a tooth extraction because my jaw bone will not be able heal right.
-Dry mouth (since the radiation will kill my salivary glands), which causes mouth sores and ulcers, and cavities, and makes it difficult to eat.
-Loss of all taste buds (which in combination with dry mouth, makes eating anything seem like eating sand. Tasty.)
-Sore throat (understatement of the century) described as feeling like raw meat, like a blister that has opened up and oozes (which is called Mucositis- your throat is oozes a great amount of mucous). Some people end up needing feeding tubes because it is either too painful to swallow or they just completely lose the ability to swallow.
-Loss of my voice - due to all the trauma in my throat, my cords will not be able to function properly, but hopefully this will be temporary. I never regain my "normal" voice and will always sound hoarse. They also told me to never expect to sing again.

They said that it is a big misnomer that chemo is more difficult then radiation. It is actually the opposite. Chemo is used to make the radiation treatments more effective. The vast majority of my side effects will be from radiation.

Also, many times radiation and chemo are done separately, but my treatments are being done concurrently, making the side effects of both a lot more extreme.

Monday, July 2, 2012

1st Chemo = 1st Side Effects

Everyone said the first chemo would be no big deal with no side effects. After going through the last three days since my first infuse, that was not totally correct. Ive had a major nauseating headache for THREE days. With a couple of times a minute, a pounding from my neck to the top of my head, feeling like my head might actually explode. Its gradually lightened up and is pretty much gone today. Turns out I might have been slightly dehydrated, or really just not hydrated enough with all the poison being pumped into my body. So Ive tried to drink as much water as possible and that has seemed to help. I do not look forward to having a major headache after every chemo. Let's hope next week goes better.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Thank You

Today, hundreds of people fasted and prayed for me. For me. It means so much to me that so many people are focusing their thoughts and efforts in my behalf. Im not the type of person that likes to be the center of attention, so it almost kind of strange to me. But I am so so grateful!

We can truly feel the blessings of the Lord in our lives as we go through this trial. We are so thankful that he has placed so many wonderful people around us to support and comfort us.

I wish I could give a proper THANK YOU to everyone who fasted and prayed for me today, and every other day! And to everyone who has left me a sweet voice mail, text message, cards, flowers, or meals. I wish I had more time and energy to respond to everyone, but just know that I am so grateful and it means the world to me to have so much support from loving friends and family.

Thank you

Thank you

Thank you

1st Chemo


I had my first Chemo Infuse. It was a loading (aka double) dose, so my official "1st" dose will be next week.

My appointment was at 9am and we were previously told it would take an hour or two. Boy was that estimate a little off. I think that time estimate was just for the chemo itself. When we got there, first I had labs drawn, then we visited with the chemo doc, which was nice but unexpected. Then we went over to the infuse area - a room filled with reclining chairs and IV bag stands.

When you first go in, they "access" your port. It's like getting an IV, but with a little button looking thing where the needle goes into the port (which is under the skin.) It's a little painful, but not bad. I had a little laugh today while watching the man sitting across the row from me getting accessed. He made this horrible grimace and the nurse asked him if it was really as bad as he made it look. It's really not that bad.

So after getting accessed, they push a little bit of saline to flush the line. A lot of people get a horrible taste in their mouth from this, but luckily I dont. Then you get a small bag of saline fluid to help with hydration. After that comes the Benadryl, which is the worst part. It's a big dose and it totally knocks you out cold, with the room spinning until you just cant stay awake any longer. It's pretty common to have an allergic reaction to chemo, so you get Benadryl every time. Once the benadryl is all in they give it a few minutes, then start the chemo. Then after the chemo, you have to wait another hour to check for allergic reactions and they run any remaining fluid left from the beginning.

We didnt end up leaving until 3pm. So ya, it took a little longer that an hour and a half.



After I woke up from my Benadryl induced coma/nap, I looked over to find that Robby was able to get a little shut-eye too. Which was great because this whole process has been exhausting for him also. He did mention though that his chair was pretty uncomfortable compared to my nice recliner and pillow. And that he was freezing. I didn't notice, being that I was under a heated blanket...